The Diary of a Young Girl – By Anne Frank
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Early Life (June 12,1929-June 15,1942)
Anne Frank, a courageous girl, was gifted a red and white checkered diary by
her friend on her thirteenth birthday. She named it Kitty and started writing
her feelings and happenings around her as she never had a good friend. Kitty
turned to be her friend in which she confided everything. Thus, it was a source
of comfort and support to her. Apart from Kitty she received many other gifts
like a game, a bottle of grape juice and a blue blouse, a puzzle, a jar of cold
cream, 2.50 guilders and a gift certificate, two books from her parents. She
celebrated her birthday in the school by sharing cookies with her teachers and
her classmates. They played volley-ball, danced around Anne in a circle and
sang ‘Happy Birthday’. Then she went home where her friends Ilse Wagner,
Hanneli Goslar and Jacqueline van Maarsen were waiting for her. They were
called Anne, Hanne and Sanne by others. Her friends presented her a beautiful
book—Dutch Sagas and Legends. A puzzle, a darling brooch and a book ‘Daisy goes
to the Mountains’ were some of the other gifts presented by her aunts.
Anne
celebrated her birthday party on Sunday afternoon. She watched the Rin Tin Tin
movie with her friends. It was a big hit. The list of Anne’s friends as written
in her diary includes her classmates as well as boys. Her best friend in her
class was Jacqueline Van Maarsen but later she realized she never had a real
friend and was mistaken about Jacqueline.
Anne had many friends. Betty Bloemendaal looked kind of a poor girl as she
lived in some obscure street in West Amsterdam and was a quiet girl. D.Q. was a
nervous girl and the teachers always kept assigning her extra homework as
punishment. Henny Mets and Ilse Wagner were nice girls with cheerful
dispositions. E. S. talked too much whereas Hanneli Goslar was a shy
girl—outspoken at home but reserved around other people J.R. was a detestable
girl who thought she was grown up. She was easily offended and burst into tears
at the slightest thing. There were a few nice girls also in the list -Nannie
van Praag-Sigaar, Eefje de Jong and G.Z.
Among the boys there were some who admired her friends, some she regarded as
funny, smart but there were others who were quite boring.
But the strange thing was that Anne did not have a true friend. She needed a
friend in whom she could confide but there was none. Finally she decided to
make ‘Kitty’ her friend and share her secrets with her.
Anne
and her Family (June, 20,1942)
Anne’s father, Otto Frank, was an adorable father. He got married to Anne’s
mother at the age of thirty-six. Anne had an elder sister, Margot who was bom
in 1926 and Anne was bom on June 29,1929. They lived at Frankfurt till Anne was
four years old. Her father worked in a Dutch Opekta Company, which manufactured
products used in making jam. In 1933, her parents immigrated to Holland as her
father had become the Managing Director of the company. The daughters, Margot
and Anne, were sent to stay with their grandmother at Aachen. Anne was sent to
a Montessori nursery school where she stayed till she was six. Her teacher in
the sixth grade was Mrs. Kuperus, the principal. Both of them had grown a
liking for each other and were in tears when Anne had to leave the school as
she had been accepted at the Jewish Lyceum.
Life in Germany : Anne’s family lived a life full of anxieties as their
relatives in Germany were suffering under Hitler’s anti-Jewish laws. In 1938,
her uncles (mother’s brothers) fled from Germany and took a safe refuge in
North America whereas their elderly grandmother, aged seventy three came to
live with them.
Trouble started for the Jews after May 1940 as a series of anti-Jewish decrees
restricted their freedom. According to the Germans, Jews were required to wear
a yellow star, forbidden to use street-cars, not even own or ride them.. Their
shopping time was fixed between 3 p.m. and 5 p.m. There were so many
restrictions but life went on. Meanwhile Anne’s grandmother got sick and she
died in January 1942. Anne loved her very much and when Anne celebrated her
birthday in 1942, grandma’s candle was lit with the others.
Life
at School (June 21,1942)
Anne and her five friends formed a club called ‘The Little Dipper Minus Two’.
They used to play a lot of ping pong. After a lot of games of ping-pong they
used to go to the nearest ice cream parlour that allowed Jews.
June 21,1942 made Anne a little nervous. Actually, it was the day when they
were worried about an upcoming meeting in the school in which the teachers
would decide the promotion of students to the next grade. Anne was a bit
skeptical about Maths.
There were nine teachers in Anne’s school out of which seven were men. Her
Maths teacher, Mr. Keesing, had warned her several times as she talked too
much. One day, he assigned her an extra home work, an essay on ‘A Chatterbox’.
Anne jotted down the assignment and tried to stay quiet. She decided to write
an essay that had convincing arguments to prove the necessity of talking. Mr.
Keesing enjoyed the arguments but when she talked again in the class, she was
assigned another topic ‘An incorrigible chatterbox’. Then in the third class,
the topic was ‘Quack
Quack Quack ‘ Anne had exhausted her ingenuity on the topic of chatterboxes.
So, she took the help of her friend
Sanne who was good at poetry. They wrote the essay from beginning to end in
verse. It was a beautiful poem about a mother duck and father swan with three
baby ducklings that were bitten to death by father for quacking too much. Mr.
Keesing took the joke in the right way and since then Anne had been allowed to
talk and hadn’t been assigned any extra homework.
First
meeting with Hello (July 1-5,1942)
Since Jews were not allowed to make use of cars they used to walk wherever they
went. On June 24,1942 as Anne passed the bicycle racks, she heard her name
being called. When she turned around, she saw her friend Wilmas’ second cousin
Hello Silberberg, standing there. Anne was surprised and wasn’t sure what he wanted
but still they walked together to school and it continued afterwards also. On
the way Hello told Anne about himself that he came from Gelsenkirchen and was
living with his grandparents. His parents were in Belgium. He used to have a
girlfriend named Ursula but later left her as he didn’t enjoy her company. On
Julyl, 1942, Hello told Anne that his grandmother wanted him to meet Ursul and
not Anne but Anne could feel that Hello was in love with her and not Ursul.
Even Margot and Anne’s mother had developed a liking for Hello which Anne
liked. Though she knew in her heart that it was Peter and not Hello whom she
loved. Hello was just a friend or as her mother put it—a suitor.
Call-up
Notice (July 9-11,1942)
After the results were decl’ared and Anne got her examination results. Anne
noticed that her father looked worried about something. When she asked him, he
told her that they had to go into hiding. They had already started making
preparations by sending their clothes, food and furniture to other people as
they neither wanted their belongings to be seized by the Germans nor to be into
their clutches. Anne got scared.
On July 8,1942 Margot informed Anne that father had received a call-up notice
from the SS. The call-up notice brought the vision of concentration camps and
lonely cells and that was frightening. Another terrible jolt came when they
realised that the call-up notice was not for Otto but for Margot. After much
discussion, it was decided to go into hiding even if it had to be a month
earlier than what had been planned.
Margot and Anne started packing their belongings. They packed everything from
curler, handerkerchiefs to clothes, school bags and not to forget Anne’s diary.
Miep and Jan Gies helped them in shifting their baggage and finally at seven-thirty
the family left for their hiding place. They left the house in a mess to create
an impression that they had left in a hurry.
Hiding Place: As the Jews were not allowed any conveyance, they walked in
pouring rain to reach their hiding place, which was located in Otto’s
office-building. The office people- Mr. Kugler, Mr. Kleiman, Miep and Bep
Voskuijl- all were informed of their coming. Finally, they reached the
building. There was a large warehouse on the ground floor which was used as a
workroom and a store room. There was a stairway which led to the ‘Office’ – a
very large and light room. There was a kitchen with a hot water heater and two
gas burners and a bathroom on the second floor. A wooden staircase led to the
third floor. One of its doors led to the ‘Secret Annexe’ at the back of the
house. There were many doors behind that which led to a kitchen, a large
spacious room, and a washroom.
After
they arrived at 263, Prinsengracht. Miep led them to their rooms which were
full of the cardboard boxes which they had been shifting. Anne and her father
cleared most of it and turned it into a place of living. They found the annexe
to be an ideal and comfortable hiding place. Otto plastered the walls with
postcards, movie star collection, and pictures to make it look good. Anne’s
mother stitched curtains crookedly with unskilled fingers to hang on the
windows and doors so that their neighbours might not hear or see them. They
loaded the place with strawberries and cherries. They also had a supply of reading
material, and decided to buy lots of games to keep themselves quiet so that the
people downstairs could not hear them.
Life
At Secret Annexe (July 12,1942)
Life at the annexe was not comfortable. Remaining indoors the whole day was
quiet boring. By this time Anne had a feeling that her mother did not like her.
She loved Margot more than Anne. Though she praised her when she worked hard
but she used to pick on her again after five minutes. This was not the case
with her father. He liked her and always stood by her. He came to her defence
also when she required.
August 14,1942: August 14,1942 brought a change in the life of the Franks as
Van Daans also shifted with them. Germans had sent call-up notices to them also
but they had no other option except hiding like the Franks. Now there were
seven of them- the Franks, Mrs. and Mr. Van Daan and Peter Van Daan, their son.
They wanted to know from Van Daans what had happened after they left their
apartment. Mr. Van Daan told them that their landlord Mr. Goldschmidt had
called him and showed him the note that the Frank family had left behind and so
he was planning to bring the cat. While clearing the things, they found a
notepad with an address in Maastricht written on it. Mr. Van Daan somehow
convinced him that they might have shifted to Maastricht.
September 2,1942 : Mrs. Van Daan had started behaving in a strange way. She
never wanted her house-hold things to be used in the daily routine and so
started keeping them under lock and key. Her son Peter was hypersensitive and
lazy boy. He did not have access to the books that Mr. Vein Daan read as it was
meant only for adults. This had piqued Peter’s curiosity and he caught hold of
one of the books. When Mr. Van Daan came to know about it, there was a great
feeling of quarrel between the two and Peter didn’t take his meals. On the
other hand Margot was allowed to read those books. No restriction was imposed
on her. Anne’s mother was of the opinion that girls are more mature and hence
should be allowed to read the books.
Life
Between September And October 1942
Life went on in the same monotonous way. Every other day there was a quarrel or
a hot discussion between Anne’s mother and Mrs. Van Daan. There was no change
at all. Anne started reading some books. She worked hard at French and crammed
five irregular verbs. She helped her father with Dutch lessons .Anne’s mother
still scolded her and she grew a disliking towards her. Sometimes she used to
burst into tears. There were hot discussions on petty topics like maids, which always
ended with both of them in real bad moods. Sometimes there were bickering
between the two ladies but most of the time Anne’s mother had to step back as
Mrs. Van Daan seemed to be bom debater.
While in hiding, these people faced another problem and that was of taking
bath. They used to wash themselves in a wash tub as there was no bath tub. It
was very inconvenient till one day Peter gave Anne the idea of taking bath in
the spacious office bathroom. Anne liked the idea as well as the place better
than anything else. On other days Anne used to think about the days when they
would come out of their hiding. On October 7,1942 she imagined herself in
Switzerland where they had a beautiful house with beautiful new furniture. She
bought so many things when she went to the market as her father had given her
150 guilders. But all this was a dream which never came true.
Life At The Jew Camp: On October 9,1942, Anne Frank noted that many of their J
ewish friends and acquaintances were shifted to a big camp in Drenthe. The
Gestapo was treating all of them badly. Miep told them that a person had
managed to escape from there and informed that it was terrible at the camp. The
people got almost nothing to eat, much less to drink as water was available
only one hour a day. There was only one toilet and sink for thousand people. It
was quite depressing and dismal when Anne heard about it.
A
Scary Incident (October 20 1942)
Anne continued her studies during her stay at the secret annexe. On October
14,1942, she translated a chapter, wrote down some vocabulary words, worked on
maths problems and also translated three pages of French Grammar. She had
started working at short-hand also which she used to enjoy. She read a lot of
Komer plays like Hedwig, The cousin, From Bremer, The Governess, The Green
Domino, etc. By now, her relationship with her mother had also improved and
Margot and Anne exchanged their diaries with each other to read.
The most frightening thing that happened on October 20,1942 was that a
carpenter had come that day to fill the five fire extinguishers in the
building. The office staff forgot to inform them. But somehow Anne could make
it when she heard the hammering on the landing. She informed others about it.
Anne and her father stationed themselves at the door so they could hear when
the man had left. After about fifteen minutes, the carpenter put his hammer and
some other tools on the bookcase (or so they thought) and banged on the door.
They turned white with fear presuming that someone had got suspicious about
someone living in that place. The knocking, pulling, pushing and jerking at the
door continued for some time. Anne fainted out of fear that someone had
discovered their wonderful hiding place. It was only after they heard Mr.
Kleiman’s voice saying, ‘Open up, it’s me’ that they all heaved a sigh of
relief. They opened the door at once.
Actually, the hook fastening the book case (against the door) had got stuck.
The carpenter had left after finishing his work and at the same time Mr.
Kleiman arrived to get Bep but he couldn’t open the bookcase. For Anne, it was
a terrible day as she imagined a giant, the crudest fascist in the world, was
trying to get inside the secret annexe.
But everyone soon got over it and life returned to its previous tone. On October
29,1942 they got the information that the furniture had been removed from van
Daan’s apartment but they didn’t inform Mrs. Van Daan as she already had grown
nervous the last few days. Anne spent most of the time reading books written by
well known German authors. Her mother also gave her a prayer book to read. She
read them but wondered why mother wanted her to be religious and devout.
November
9,1942 – November 20,1942
Mr. Frank became ill, but the family could not call a doctor. That weekend, Bep
Voskuijl, another worker in Mr. Frank’s office, stayed in the annexe. Anne was
not happy with her mother as she found something or the other to scold Anne.
She never passed any judgement on Margot but always found faults in whatever
Anne did. Perhaps that was the reason Anne turned to her diary and confided in
it. Mr. Frank recovered from his illness, and Peter turned sixteen on 9
November 1942. The residents of the annexe also agreed to take in an eighth
person, and Anne was quite excited at the prospect of a new addition. The new
entrant was Albert Dussel, a dentist who was married to a Christian woman. Mr.
Dussel was excited when Miep informed him of the hiding place, but he asked for
some time to put his accounts in order and treat some patients. Mr. Dussel met
Mr. Kleiman at an appointed time, and Miep then led him to the annexe. Mr.
Dussel was surprised when he met the Frank family because he had heard they
were in Belgium. The van Daans gave Mr. Dussel a list of rules when he arrived.
He shared a room with Anne and told her about the shocking things happening
outside, including the murders of women and children. Anne thought herself to
be lucky to be in hiding, and she thought of the suffering her friends must
undergo merely because they were Jewish. Anne was very upset by the news, but
she decided that she could not spend all her time crying. The loneliness of the
attic made her feel bad.
November
28,1942-June 13,1943
Anne started having a feeling that Mr. Dussel was a strict disciplinarian.
Meanwhile, it was time for the celebrations of Hanukkah and St. Nicholas Day
which fell on almost the same day. They lighted the Hanukkah candles for only
ten minutes as the candles were in short supply. For St. Nicholas Day, father
hid a basket filled with presents and a mask of Black Peter in a cabinet.
Van Daan made sausages to preserve the meat they had bought. Mr. Dussel started
a dental practice in the annexe and tried to fix Mrs. van Daan’s cavities. Anne
got tired of Mrs. van Daan’s incessant complaints and was annoyed that Mr.
Dussel constantly told her to be quiet at night. Mr. Kugler brought the
residents gravy packets to fill because there was no one else to do the job.
According to Anne, however, it was a prisoner’s job. Meanwhile so much was
happening outside. Jews were being taken from their homes and separated from
their families, and non-Jewish children were wandering the streets in hunger.
Both Christians and Jews wanted the war to end, and she believed that her
family was better off than people outside the annexe. Anne realised that
everyone was always yelling at her and calling her ‘exasperating’. Mr. Frank
thought the war would end soon, but the level of anxiety in the annexe
increased. Anne got frightened by the sound of gunfire one night and crawled into
her father’s bed for comfort. Another night, Peter also climbed up into the
loft and a rat bit his arm. The residents got frightened when they heard the
sound of burglars in the building. Later, the residents heard a radio
announcement that all Jews must be deported from Utrecht and the other
provinces of the Netherlands by the beginning of July. Mr. Dussel received a
package for his birthday from his wife. Anne noticed that Mr. Dussel did not
share his personal food with the other residents or the Dutch helpers. Anne
felt that her family was better off than the vast majority of Jews. She
predicted that they would look back and wonder how they lived for so long under
such difficult conditions. Mr. van Daan believed that the war would end in
1943. On Anne’s fourteenth birthday, her father wrote a poem for her, and
Margot translated it from German to Dutch.
June
15,1943-November 11,1943
Mr. Voskuijl did not feel well and was diagnosed with cancer and knew he did
not have long to live. Anne decided that she would not learn shorthand anymore
as she was becoming nearsighted and reading glasses could not be arranged. The
group briefly considered sending her out to an ophthalmologist, but Mr. Frank
had heard that the British had landed in Sicily, and so the war would end soon.
There was another break-in at the office, and this time the robbers took cash
and ration coupons for sugar. Anne thought she would be overjoyed when the war
would end as she wanted to go back to school again. Two air-raid sirens sounded
in one day as bombs fell relentlessly on Amsterdam. The residents of the annexe
got scared, but Anne tried to be brave. They heard the good news that Benito
Mussolini, Italy’s fascist leader, had been deposed. Italy surrendered
unconditionally, but Anne’s happiness was tampered by the news that Mr. Kleiman
had to undergo a stomach surgery. She was worried that Mr. Van Maaren, a man
who worked in the warehouse and was not trustworthy, would find out about the
hiding place. Anne sometimes used to get frustrated and depression started
building in. Anne compared herself to a bird with broken wings, longing for
fresh air and sunshine. Margot decided to take a correspondence course in Latin
to overcome her boredom, but Anne found it too difficult. Mr. Frank asked Mr. Kleiman
for a children’s Bible so that Anne could learn about the New Testament. Anne
was constantly afraid of being discovered, and compared the eight residents to
a patch of blue sky surrounded by dark clouds. The clouds were setting in, and
they could see both the destruction below them and the peace above them.
November,
1943
Anne had a fountain pen which she valued highly. She got it when she was nine
years old. It had come from her grandmother in a red leather case. When she was
ten she took the pen to school and her teachers allowed her to use it. At the
age of twelve it was given a new case in honour of the day she started at the
Jewish lyceum. When she turned thirteen she took the pen to the annexe along
with her and now that when she was fourteen it was enjoying its last year. One
Friday afternoon, as Anne was busy in rubbing beans, she swept the floor and
threw die dust in the stove. When she went back to her seat she found her pen
missing. Everyone looked for it but all in vain. Next day, the remains of the
pen were found when Mr. Frank emptied the stove. There was no trace of the gold
nib. Anne was left with one consolation that at least her pen had been cremated
just as she would be some day.
Bep had diphtheria and she was not allowed to come in contact with any of them
for six weeks. It was very difficult to manage without her. Mr. Kleiman was
still in bed and had taken only gruel for three weeks. Mr. Kugler was busy upto
his neck in work. Margot started sending Latin lessons to a teacher under the
registered name of Bep. The teacher corrected and sent them back. Mr. Dussel
was in a state of confusion as Mrs. Van Daan wanted a treat from him on his
first anniversary in the annexe.
Anne had a vision of Hanneli in her dreams. She saw her thin and worn wearing
rags. She looked at her with sadness as if she wanted to ask why Anne had
deserted her. Anne felt guilty for not having thought of her for month in fact
she had not forgotten her. She felt helpless as she could not do anything for
Hanneli.
December,
1943
It was again time to celebrate St. Nicholas Day but this time they could not
celebrate it like last year so, Mr. Frank and Anne decided to write a verse for
each person. Anne removed the note at quarter to eight from the big laundry
basket and read it aloud. She then asked them to look into the basket for his
or her shoe. There was a roar of laughter as everyone took out the shoe because
inside each shoe was a little wrapped package addressed to its owner.
Anne was not well as she suffered from flu. She had a bad cough and had to duck
under the blanket to try to keep from coughing. They were scared of somebody
listening to the coughing. She was given all sorts of treatments to subside her
coughing. Bep was still not well but her sister was a bit better. Everyone got
something or the other for Flanukkah. The weather was drizzly and overcast and
their spirits were low as there was no sign of the war to end.
Anne and other residents were quite moody during their stay at he annexe.
Sometimes they felt ‘on top of the world’ and at other times ‘in tjie depths of
despair’. Sometimes she used to feel herself fortunate as compared to other
Jewish children. She wished to be out in the fresh air, longed to ride a bike,
dance, whistle and feel that she was free. She often missed having a mother who
took her seriously.
Anne received the Christmas present. Miep had made a delicious Christmas cake
with ‘peace 1944’ written on top. Bep provided a batch of cookies. There was a
jar of yogurt for Peter, Margot and Anne and a bottle of beer for each of the
adults.
Anne again dreamt of grandmother and Hanneli. She thought about her grandma who
was so loyal and good. She would never let any of her grandchildren down. She
always stuck up for Anne despite her misbehaviour. When she thought of Hanneli
she called herself selfish and coward and thanked God for giving her so much
which she didn’t even deserve.
There were fewer squabbles in the annexe. Sometimes it was there but only
because of food and that too because of the ridiculous ideas of Mrs. Van Daan.
For the last few months they had been splitting up the meat, the soup, the
potatoes and this time it was the fry potatoes. Anne wished they could split up
completely.
January,
1944
Anne went through her diary as she had nothing to do and found that she had
shown negative feelings towards her mother. She was shocked and started
wondering why she had written such things in her diary. Then she cleared her
conscience by telling herself that it was only because her mother did not
understand her and she also did not try to be one with her feelings. But that
period was now over.
Anne
had grown wiser and mother steadier. She stopped retaliating against her mother
and tried to think better words to write unpleasant words on paper rather than
on her mother’s heart.
Anne realised that her mother tried to be friendly with her whereas she wanted
her to be a typical mother tactful and gentle. Once, Anne had gone to a dentist
along with her mother and Margot. When the dentist job was over, her mother
told her to go back while she and Margot decided to shop. Anne didn’t like the
idea as she also wanted to go for shopping. The reason for sending her back was
that she had her bike with her. Anne got so annoyed that she rebuked them
publicly.
Another
thing which she confessed in her diary was her becoming consciousness of the
changes that were taking place in her body as well as her mind. Her periods had
started and she wanted to have a girl-friend to share her secrets.
Anne
liked to have a friend and she decided to select Peter for this role. Once she
went to his room but she didn’t gather the courage to talk to him in a friendly
way. She came back to her room and cried a lot. That night she had a dream in
which she saw herself with Peter-Peter Schiff. When she woke up she could still
feel his cheek against her and staring into her eyes. She had earlier dreamt of
her granny (paternal grandmother) grandma (maternal grandmother) and Hanneli
but this time it was Peter. His mental image was so clear that she didn’t need
photograph of him.
Anne
recollects how she was in love with Sally’s cousin – Appy. But later she
realized that she had an out-and- out crush on Peter. They used to go together
through their neighbourhood the whole summer. Years went by and Peter started
meeting other girls arousing Anne’s jealousy towards those girls. The older she
grew, the more she loved Peter. She used to do nothing else but think about
Peter.
Bep,
Miep and Jan fell ill. Bep had a bad cold whereas, the other two had upset
stomachs. Anne kept herself busy practising dance steps every evening. Everyone
in the annexe was interested in reading a book ‘A Cloudless Morning’ which
dealt with a number of adolescent problems. Margot had got nicer feelings and
started becoming a nice friend. On the other hand Anne’s mother believed that
there was no mother like her who had such a good relationship and understanding
of her daughters. Anne thought she was wrong. She kept on thinking about Peter
most of the time.
The annexe residents had divided many things like meat, fats and oils. They
were trying their own potatoes. The relationships had a change. Mother’s
birthday was approaching. She had received some extra sugar from Mr. Kugler
which made Van Daans jealous of her as Mrs. van Daan had not received such kind
of courtesy from anyone.
Anne kept dreaming about Peter and her dreams were less vivid now. She used to
be jealous of Margot’s relationship with father but gradually this emotion was
weakening. Of course, she still felt hurt when her father used to be
unreasonable towards her but she longed for his affection, hugs and kisses. Her
mother received a real mocha cafe, prewar quality from the office and it was a
nice day.
Anne
found a change in her attitude. She started looking towards the petty quarrels
with the Van Daans in a different way. She felt that they were not entirely to
blame. The fault was on their part also. According to her ‘intelligent people’
(such as ourselves) should have more insight into how to deal with others.
Mother should not have been very hard on van Daans.
A
strange thing had happened. She could feel that people talk about sex in a
secretive or disgusting manner. Even mother told Anne not to discuss sex with
anyone especially boys and “if they bring it up, don’t answer them”. She was
learning something about the sex from either books or things she picked up in
conversations. Mrs. van Daan never discussed this topic with Peter. No one knew
how much information did Peter have on this topic but one day, after a
discussion whether Boche was a tomcat or a cat, Peter took Anne downstairs and
showed her the sexual organ to confirm that it was a male cat. They had more
discussions on this topic but Anne felt that she could discuss the topic
normally with Peter, without craddng jokes.
Anne
developed a great liking for family trees. She spent her Sundays sorting out
and looking over movie-star collection. Every Monday Mr. Kugler brought her a
copy of ‘Cinema and Theatre’ magazine. Others felt that it was a sheer waste of
money but Anne’s knowledge about films and film stars had increased after
reading the magazine. She started doing new hair styles. But after getting so
many remarks from others she used to restore her hair to their normal mass of
curls.
Anne’s
mother and Mrs. Van Daan discussed about their childhood quite often and Anne
found it very boring. Jan and Mr. Kleiman loved talking about people who had
gone underground or into hiding which had become a routine. There were many
resistance groups such as free Netherlands, that forget their identity cards,
provided financial support to those in hiding, organised hiding places and
found work for those young Christians who went underground. Anne felt amazed at
the generosity and unselfishness of those people who risked their own lives to
help and save others. Other bizarre stories were also making the rounds, e.g.,
Mr. Kleiman reported of a soccer match held in the province of Gelderland and
new registration cards had been issued in Hilversum.
It was a Sunday and Anne found it boring as usual. She went downstairs in the
dark all by herself. She stood at the top of the stairs while German planes
flew back and forth. She was not afraid. She looked up at the sky and trusted
in God. All she wanted to do was scream “Let me be, leave me alone”.
February
1944
Everywhere, there was talk of inversion. Newspapers were full of invasion news
and talks like ‘Germans will do what they can to defend the country, even
flooding it, if necessary’ was driving people crazy. People were trying to find
ways out if confronted with such situation. There were arguments about going
hungry, dying, bombs, fire extinguishers, sleeping bags, I-cards, poison gas,
etc., but all of them were not pleasant. Anne was the only person who remained
calm throughout the discussion. She just hoped that everything would be all
right in the end.
Anne had another row with her mother. Actually, something had pricked Margot
while she was tucking herself in the wool blanket when they tried to find out,
they found it was a pin left by their mother. When mother was informed about
it, she got annoyed and criticized Anne for being careless many times.
It was a good day. The shining sun, the deep blue sky, the magnificent breeze,
all made Anne long for conversation, freedom, friends, even being alone. She
was in a state of utter confusion as she didn’t know what to read, what to
write and what to do.
Anne
felt Peter glancing at her most of the time. He had an argument with Mr. Dussel
when he was fidgeting with the knobs of the radio and wanted to share it with
someone. He found Anne to be the right person who would not tell anyone about
it and told her everything. Anne listened intently and felt that he was the
person with whom she could have a strong feeling of fellowship.
Mr.
Dussel told Anne’s mother that Peter had apologised to him. Anne was surprised
at this. She cleared it with Peter who told her that Mr. Dussel had been lying.
That evening Mr. Van Daan and Peter snubbed Mr. Dussel and said they never
wanted to speak again to each other. Peter had a dental appointment that day.
It was Margot’s birthday. She wanted to make Margot feel special, so she
thought of making coffee and potatoes for her. She went to the attic to collect
some potatoes and Peter helped her. Then she spent some time with Peter who
told her that he had an inferiority complex and would never tell anyone after
the war that he was a Jew. Anne didn’t like the dishonesty in him. But Anne
could make out that he needed affection. That was the reason he
hugged Nouschi so tightly.
Anne
read the stories written by her ‘Evas Dream’ and ‘The Secret Annexe’ to Mr. Van
Daan. Peter also came there and Anne made him read the part where Cady and Haws
talked about God. She told him that she wanted him to see that she did not
write amusing stories only.
Anne
started going to Peter’s room frequently. Her mother didn’t approve of it and
always told her not to bother him. She sometimes looked in an odd way at her
when she came out of his room. Anne hated her for this.
Anne longed for Peter all the time. Sometimes she felt like crying and then
comforting herself on his shoulder. She went twice upstairs but didn’t get any
chance to meet him as he was not in his room. She ran to the washroom and cried
a lot. Then she realised that she would never reach Peter in that way. She
thought that he might not be interested in her. This thought brought more tears
in her eyes and it was quite disappointing to have felt that way.
There was not much difference between the routine of people who were not in
hiding and the people living in the annexe except that what they did during the
rest of the week happened on Sunday in the annexe, getting up, lighting the
stove, washing, cleaning, breakfast, washing up the dishes and laundry were the
normal chores.
The weather had turned pleasant. Anne and Peter went to the attic to enjoy the
natural breath. They could see the blue sky, chesmot tree, seagulls and other
birds and were so rapt in the beauty that they were unable to speak. Anne
realised that the best remedy for those who are frightened, lonely or unhappy
is to go outside, where they can be alone with the sky, nature and God. It
would bring comfort to them.
P. S. Thoughts: To Peter
They had been missing so many things at the internal level. Anne also longed
for freedom and fresh air like Peter.
Anne thought about Peter only. She felt that both of them were struggling with
their innermost feelings. Both their mothers have no motherly understanding and
treated them badly.
Anne couldn’t help herself imagining Peter in front of her eyes all the time.
It seemed that Peter Schiff and Peter Van Daan had melted into one Peter. All
she wanted was to spend maximum time with Peter. According to Anne, she had
grown sentimental and foolish.
March 1944
Another burglary attempt took place. Mr. Van Daan found both the glass door and
the office door open. On moving ahead he found even the doors above open. He
checked everything and when he found that nothing was missing he went off to
sleep.. But next morning Peter found the front door open and the projector and
Mr. Kugler’s new briefcase had disappeared from the closet. They could make out
that it was another case of burglary. The only explanation was that the burglar
must have had a duplicate key since there were no signs of a forced entry.
Bep shared her inner feelings of dejection and depression with the two
ladies-Mrs. Van Daan and Anne’s mother and wanted some help from them to come
out of that situation. Anne’s mother told her to think of all other people in
the world who had been suffering. Anne got annoyed. She felt how could grown up
be stupid and foolish. She wanted to tell Bep something but she could not. She
talked to Peter in the afternoon. Even he had something in his mind which he
wanted to share with someone.
Anne
started having a feeling that her love for Peter was growing. She again went to
the attic to bring potatoes. On the way back, she met Peter and sat talking
with him for next one hour. Peter asked him ‘In love’ and she replied “Why
should I be in love ?” But deep within her even she knew that she was in love
with Peter. It seemed crazy to talk about Peter. It gave her happiness.
Normally,
Saturday used to be very boring and dull for Anne but this Saturday her father
had a conversation with her in French, and then he read out from Dickens. After
having finished the lesson she went downstairs and found Peter waiting for her.
She liked it; they talked for almost an hour. Anne wondered whether Peter was
also in love with her. Mrs. Van Daan asked what was going on between the two of
them but she didn’t say anything. At one moment Anne protested “I take that as
an insult” still, it was only Peter she thought about.
Van Daans scolded Peter for petty things and Anne disliked this because she
felt a feeling of responsibility toWards him. Anne realised that Peter had no
friend in whom he could confide. She wanted to be with him to take away his
loneliness. She kept hoping to discover that he was dying to see her and then
he would be able to express his feelings to her.
Anne
thought about her schooldays and she felt them to be unreal; she had many
friends and admirers. Even Peter said “You were always the centre of
attraction”. But now there was a drastic change in her. She wanted friends, not
admirers. She wanted to be friendly with people who respected her for her
character and her deeds and not her flattering smile. That’s why she didn’t
miss the schooldays. She looked back at her life of 1943 which brought crying
spells and loneliness for her but they brought the gradual realization of her
faults and shortcomings as well. The second half of 1943 was a bit better. She
had became a teenager but was treated more like a grown up. She wanted to
change herself, she didn’t want to be with her mother. New year brought another
change. She longed for boyfriend and this brought a difference between Anne and
her mother.
Margot
and Anne wrote notes for each other. Anne dreamed of Peter. In one of her
dreams she saw Peter giving her a kiss but telling her that he didn’t love her.
In another dream she found Peter telling her that she was flirting and she told
Peter that she was not. She was glad when she woke up that it was only a dream
and not a reality. In one of her dreams, she dreamt they were kissing each
other and realized that Peter had the cheeks of a man who shaved; they were not
soft.
10th
March was not a good day. Miep caught cold. Mr. Kleiman had not recovered from
his illness. The man who used to supply them potatoes got arrested. Someone
scared them by knocking on the wall next door. So, many things happened which
made Anne feel sad and dejected. She did not want to do anything not even write
the diary pages. She met Peter and they talked and chatted for half an hour in
the afternoon.
Anne’s
desire to be with Peter kept on increasing. She always wanted to be with him,
to talk to him. But she was afraid of being a nuisance. Peter had told her that
at one time he used to take her as a pain in the neck and according to Anne she
also felt the same but the situation had changed now. She wanted both of them
to be the best of friends.
Peter was acting as if he had been annoyed with Anne and it was becoming
unbearable for Anne. She used to have the hardest time trying to maintain a normal
appearance when she was feeling sad and miserable. She wanted to go outside and
talk to someone and sometimes she just wished to be alone. The news from the
outside world had made her condition worse. Margot sometimes asked her but she
didn’t confide in her.
The
people who supplied them food coupons got arrested and there were only five
blackmarket ration cards with no coupons, no food and no oils. Since Miep and
Mr. Kleiman were sick again it was difficult for Bep to manage the shopping.
Now their lunch was washed potatoes and pickled kale. The whole house smelt of
them. Mr. Van Daan was irritated as well as annoyed. Mr. Van Daan wanted to
smoke only. Mr. Frank wanted to stay calm and quiet whereas Mr. Dussel had to
complete his assignment.
Bep
was down with a bad cold. Mr. Kleiman’s stomach bled so much that he lost
consciousness. They wanted Mr. Keiman to go to a reliable doctor to get a
medical certificate of ill health. Doctors attended even serious patients on
telephone as there was a long line of patients.
Anne
had started resenting the idea of sharing a room with Mr. Alfred Dussel whereas
Peter had a room of his own. She didn’t like the idea of not talking to Peter.
She wanted to share her inner thoughts with him.
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